50 reasons to keep becoming Jayne

I just had a birthday, I am now 50....ugg, tears, sadness, be sad for me.

For whatever reason this was a hard birthday. I guess my life isn't what I expected it would be a 50.
As I was feeling a little sorry for myself, I began to think of the alternative for not turing 50, I think it would be death. I figured I can't stop the calendar from changing years, but I can stop feeling sorry for myself and change my attitude.  I stopped being sad and look at all I had in my life and all my happiness that keeps me becomingjayne....
Here is my list of blessings and smiles 50 of them to help me celebrate my becoming.
1. William
2. Jesse
3. Levi
4. Friends and friendships over the years a special friendship with John, which has experienced a shift which, is hard for me.
5. Family: supportive parents and siblings
6. Freedom to smoke marijuana
7. Freedom to be me
8. Sunshine
9.  My ability to teach and to learn, being a life long learner
10. My school CVG
11. Students that want to learn math and make me smile
12. Math in Focus
13. Pilates
14. Yoga
15. Running
16. Trips to San Diego
17. My new Kate Spade wistlet
18. Wine
19. Tequila!
20. Laughter
21. Car
22. Love
23. Jessica and her kids
24. Books to read
25. Doc Martin
26. Skiing trips
27. My new Maryland house
28. My old Niemi house
29. Smiles
30. Knowing heart break
31. Trust and Friendship with my boys
33. Honesty
34. Courage
35. Dreams
36. Text messages
37. Sadness
38. Chocolate
39. Fresh Flowers
40. Adventure
41. Marathons and half marathons
42. Being silly
43. Being smart
44. Being a friend
45. Watching my kids play basketball,act, tennis, soccer
46. Being a mom
47. Good Health
48. Fish tacos
49. Another year to be
50. Becoming Jayne at 50.......

I decided that I would post it on my blog and write this year about my 50 lessons learned from being 50 years old.